No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is
faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but
with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may
be able to endure it. 1 Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. Phew...what a relief! There are more of us out there. You know, the ones who have waivered in our diets, cheated (really only on ourselves), basically failing with temptations over and over again. Yes. Thats me. One of diet's biggest failures in life. I have tried them all, starved and binged, tried again. I have used my kids, my husband, new wardrobe and even tried to have my parents bribe me to keep my goal focused. FAILURE!
Today I am the heaviest, largest and most obese I have ever been. It didn't happen overnight. I was never truly ever thin. But I was never fat and I most certainly was never this unhealthy. Most of my weight gain was just lack of exercise, poor choices, mommyhood, miscarriages, surgeries and just plain ole self sabotage. I did it to myself. Its not my genes although they aren't very slender either. Its not anyone's fault but my own.
Great I've claimed it. Now what?
Now I start over. In a way that I have never done before. I am giving up this journey now!!! Yep, I'm quitting!!!
I am laying down my desires, my will and my plans. I quit. I am giving it to someone much bigger this time. I am letting him carry it. Well, me to be exact cause I sure can't carry myself. I can't even hardly get off the floor by myself. I am giving this journey to God. I am learning and understanding just where I have gone wrong all these years. See I never looked at becoming healthy being within my abilities...with temptations. I never looked for the way out when temptation was in my way. My escape hatch was there all the time.
My escape hatch. It was not disguised as my refrigerator or cheese and crackers or even as a diet pop. God was there all the time. How many times did I just have to seek Him, His strength and His wisdom to show me the way? To carry me through just a little longer? I think it would be easier to say just how many times I have actually done just that. Few...very few. So few its probably close to none. I have rested on my own strengths and we know just where that trip has gotten me. Back to square one with more pounds packed in the luggage. Ugh. My luggage. That is going into tomorrow's post. For now, I am holding onto to God and to 1 Corinthians 10:13. I have the verse in memory and praying that God will help me become who he wants me to be. Inside and Out.
