Pray as much as you Talk!

If you believe, you will receive what you ask for when you pray. ~Matt 21:22

This one single verse inspired my prayer life.

Prayer.

It's such a strong and mighty ability that the Lord has given us.  But do we use it the way we should?  I know I am guilty of the lazyman's prayer...tired, little effort, just jumping a hoop to "get it done".  I certainly know why I failed at "my way" of doing things for so long.

Prayer.

Do you pray as much as you talk about it?  Just a little thought to ponder.

Prayer.

Its what's for dinner.  :)   Seriously.  I stopped talking about what I wanted to do, how I was going to do it, what I want to eat.  And prayed.  Not just during the moments that I struggle but for every aspect.  And I don't just pray it.  I believe it!  It may be a slow journey but that's good with me.  I am feeling so much better already.  I can't believe it.  And I know that no matter what comes my way, that God has me covered before I stress over it.  

My Soul is Singing

But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble. ~Psalm 59:16

My soul is truly singing this morning.  Not because I peeked at the scale or I have a luscious breakfast in front of me but because I am loved and I am forgiven.  Because my God is stronger than anything I have to conquer.  

I am at such peace with my soul.  I cannot put into words (although if you know me, you know I am going to try...teehee) what a weight is already off my shoulders.  Why I never truly gave this all to Him to start off with is beyond me.  But I feel free...  I feel rejuvenated...  I want to sing...  I want to dance with my Heavenly Father...  

I know I have challenges before me but I have almost an invincible feeling about getting them accomplished today.  My soul knows that this battle is won already.  I need to remain steadfast, unwavering...day by day, moment by moment.  I am finding myself searching God's word and His presence more frequently and being secured by the words I read.   


So I am off, singing and dancing in my soul...

Who packed all this Luggage?

"Let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith" (Heb.12: 1-2)

Well, if you haven't already guessed....the luggage I am referring to is my weight.  Not just my physical weight but also the weight of my past failures, inadequacies, shame, embarrassments and just flat out miserableness.    This verse first grabbed me at "lay aside every weight".  Now I know that it isn't speaking literally but that is how it hit me .  My weight is my biggest entanglement because it keeps me from doing so much more with my life.  So much more that I could do to serve our Heavenly Father, my husband, children, family and friends.  Not only does my weight hold me back, it affects those around me as well.

  That my friends is a lot of luggage.  

God calls us to lay it aside and the sin that entangles us.  This is huge for me.  For the first time in my life, I have given this all to God.  There is no way to run this race with any endurance carrying that all around.  I am not going to give in to the self doubt, depression and discouragement.  Talk about entanglement.  Have you ever really thought about just how much that holds you down?  

One of my biggest fears in beginning a diet, or weight loss journey, is the acknowledgment of my weight and my size.  I have always tried to weigh in with no one around to hear my weight's number.  I've looked for a friend to help me with my measurements so my embarrassment would be as minimal as possible.  I could go on and on about all the ways I have tried to hold on to my dignity.  

LIKE NO ONE CAN SEE ME!!  I mean really??  Who was I kidding?  Me.

This is part of why this blog is here.  One, because I love to share what God is doing in my life.  If it wasn't for His grace, unwavering love and forgiveness, I would not be journeying.  Two is to have a physical account for my journey.   And three, because I am not going to hide anymore.  I am not going to let any of this entangle me or weigh me down anymore.

With that being said, the squeamish reader may want to just stop here.


 I am about to share some numbers as well as *gasp* photos of the true me.  The only photo I am not going to share is the shot of my stomach with my skin showing.  Not because I am embarrassed but because I want to hold it and show you what changes have commenced on another post.  (I know....a special slide show of my progress of my fat stomach's reduction.  SQUEEEEEE!  You're Welcome. LOL)  So if you are still here, its not because I haven't warned or given you enough time to close down.

So without further Adieu ....Here I am.

Weight: 350.5lbs  Height: 5'8"  Chest: 62"  Waist: 61"  Hips: 68"  Arm: 18"  Thigh: 31"

So now its all out on the table.  I have nothing to hide.  And you are still here reading this....  Thank you.
I am looking forward to sharing again.   Blessings....Me